Peek into my thoughts

So I don't really know what my deal is, but I've been weird lately. I'm moping around all the time and being all melancholy. It's pretty much lame. But tonight, after some great conversation with my Brenann, and then a short conversation with Brandon, I've come to the conclusion that I am putting myself down. Nothing about my attitude can change until I choose to change it. I know everything won't change overnight, (although that would be nice) but I can make the process start. With me. Not with anyone else just my attitude. My expectations of myself and my life. I am excited to watch this change begin in me.

Another thing that I realized is that I love my child just the way she is. Of course we will keep working on manners and behavior while she grows up, but ultimately, she has attitude. And that shouldn't surprise anyone, because she spends all her time with me. And lets face it, I've got attitude. Anyway, I love my child. A lot of people tell me she is perfect and so easy. And guess what! That is not totally true. The truth is that she has a lot of energy, a lot of love to share, a lot of attitude, and more personality than I do. I love everything about her, but that doesn't make her easy. That makes her a complex little person who came to this earth to learn and grow just like the rest of us. What a blessing that she and God chose me to be her mom. I love that little flower more than anything in the world.

Britain and mommy--day 3