I have had a weird day. It's been really peaceful at times, really nice and relaxing, and then for no reason I'm yelling about cars and chicken dinner and any thing else that set me off.
Brandon I'm sorry.
Poor Brandon, he received almost all of my frustration today. And he didn't deserve any of it.
I'm really stressed out. Brandon's job ends on Monday. I know he can get a new one, but this "trust" thing does not come naturally to me. I think on top of that, having my house in shambles is creating a lot of tension inside of me. I think I need to clean. I just wanna share the one thing that really humbled me just now.
I was stalking on facebook (don't pretend you're surprised by this) and I was trying to imagine what my life would be like if I were graduating this year from college and I had had a crazy single college experience.
Then I realized something.
That life would never have made me happy like the one I have does. I would not trade a single day with my husband for anything. I definitely wouldn't give Britain back for one single night of non-mom fun.
I am so grateful for the love that my sweet little family gives me, and for the joy that comes from knowing
I belong with them.
Tonight Britain made a bed for herself on the floor, then she grabbed her bunny and pulled the stuffed nose to her mouth and gave it the sweetest kiss. It was so adorable. No stuffed animal has ever been luckier.
My husband is perfect. My daughter is my world. I hope I can push through to get a degree, but ultimately, I already have the things that really matter to me. I have a role in my family.
I'm going to go clean my house so Brandon can wake up to a sweet little clean house. :) Good night moon.
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