Stress

Sometimes stress gets me. It like grabs my heart and tries to put it in a straight jacket. And, boy does that feel uncomfortable! I keep telling myself that I can handle life. And I think I can, most of the time.

I sure love Brandon, he can just tell when I'm about to lose it. Even if I'm trying really hard to keep things together. It helps to know that he pays attention to my needs even when I don't really know what I need.

Malena: I'm feeling like a horrible person right now. I've been so focused on my life and my concerns that I totally forgot to get family history links compiled for you. I'll get on that. Expect me to post that stuff by Saturday. So sorry.

Malena & Brenann: Wowo! I'm a slacker. Totally haven't signed up for the race, or even found out if we can have one group with some members running the 5k and others running the 1 mile. Again, hold me to that by Saturday.

I sure love my friends. You guys are the "sane" in my "insane" head. You guys rock. Thanks for dealing with me while I practice screwing my head back on. I would be lost without all of you.

I FINALLY get my new mattress tomorrow!!!! Our mattress broke about two years ago, and we thought it would be this huge hassle to use the warranty, so we put it off forever! But finally I decided, I refuse to sleep uncomfortably every night when we have a warranty!!! So $65 dollars later, I am only paying for delivery, and my mattress will be mine. Again, thank you in-laws for the wonderful wedding present that I apparently get twice. What a lovely night that will be!

Ok. I just needed to post something of my random thoughts. Now, on to conquering my homework!

Dancing

Today we danced: ballet, and Gangnam Style. What an awesome kid I have! I didn't even prompt her when Gangnam Style came on, she just instantly started doing the arm thing and I grabbed the camera as fast as I could. Enjoy :)

Can life get any better than this? I submit that it cannot.

Saturday

Saturday is a special day, it's the day we get ready for Sunday...

I grew up singing this song, but now I like it even more. I love knowing that I made it through another week of homework, I love the idea that I am preparing for the Sabbath day.  

I love how Saturday just feels like everything is winding down.  I always feel like my Saturday is the best day of the week because it has so many options! I can do anything on Saturday! My favorite thing to do is to get done with all my chores and homework early, and then either go swimming, or go window shopping at the mall. So many fun things to do on a day like today. I love feeling relaxed like I do on this day!

Maybe Britain and I will go walk around at the temple, maybe Brandon will get bored at his writing convention early so I can have a buddy as we go enjoy our afternoon once the house is clean.

Hopefully my car gets done at the shop right when I feel ready to go out and have fun, and not while I'm in the middle of my weekend chores... Sigh, well its off to get stuff done.  I've kind of wasted the morning, but alas! That is yet another joy of Saturday!

Valentines!

Today has been good. I got my car back (after two full days of it being at the shop).  I got to drop my favorite guy off at work and even make him breakfast.  My little princess allowed me to clean my kitchen up after breakfast and even get some other stuff done while she napped this morning.  She is back in bed and I'm about to tackle yet another list of never ending chores. :) I have a very spoiled life.  Moving on.  The entire reason I'm writing this blog entry at all is to share what I'm in love with:

1. Brandon's smile

2. Britain's giggle

3. Brandon getting really excited about anything writing related

4. Britain copying me

5. Hugs from my favorite two people

6. Being in school

7. Having really great friends

8. Rocking my baby back to sleep

9. Planning my future with my best friend

10. Being a mom and wife

This is my goofy girl happy on Valentines Day 2013

<3 Happy Valentines Day <3

Brandon

So I'm married to an aspiring writer. Brandon is going to be an author. What does that mean for me?  I get to leave my husband alone for hours at a time while he works on a job that no one will pay him for for a very long time. 

But it's good.  I am really proud of him, because he is super passionate about writing and I love being married to someone who has a passion.  I love that I can be supportive of his passion, and he is supportive of my passions.  My husband is quite possibly the coolest person that I have ever met.

I love him.

Remember his name, because you'll want a signed copy when he is published and famous.  :) Just saying.

Just thinking

Tonight I am totally done with homework. And too tired to do dishes or fold the clean laundry so I started indexing for a while. 

If you want to know what indexing is then click here. Anyone can do it :) And it helps others find more information about their ancestors.

I'm actually tired enough that focusing on small letters was too hard for me, so I got onto a website that has a lot of my family history compiled and it shows which temple work still needs to be done for my ancestors if they are dead. It was pretty neat to look at my pedigree charts with some understanding about how important this work is. 

Then I started to panic, this work is crucial, and I don't even know anything about these people.  Good heavens, I don't even know my grandpa's parents full names.  How can I help the people who gave me so much if I don't even know their names?!

I can't.

I cannot do anything for them without having the proper information.  So in the next few days hopefully I will be gathering as much of that information as I can.  This work is important. I want  the temple with Brandon and do the temple work for the family names that I already see are missing temple work. This is important and needs to be a priority in my life. 

So now that I've calmed down a little bit and accepted that there isn't much I can do tonight, I just needed to get it down on paper.  Now I think I'm off to bed.